I’m Back!!!!!!!! and I’m Totally ANGRY!!!!!!!!

•July 25, 2010 • 1 Comment

Hello,,,, finally I’m back caused by the anger and issues i need to take out.

For this post – it’s all about question and personal anger. SO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO GIVE A COMMENT!!!!!!!!!

Let’s start…………

1. I have unfinished business in which I’m hoping to finish it soon

2. What went wrong???? Every-time I open my self about my life esp my background they just back off and come back to the ” best friend ZONE”… please anyone tell me what went wrong. Is it because I was to honest?

And what hurts me more is that they’re saying ” You are everything I wanted but I can’t have”…for me the problem is I NEED SOMEONE THAT I CAN COMMUNICATE WITH, UNDERSTAND ME & FAR MOST EXCEPTS ME FOR WHO I AM

My GOD why is it so difficult????????????????????????????????

3. Never in my life I met a human being with personalities issues such as this person,,,,how can such a person have the feeling of never allowing other to be more than her, and the most unreal thing is that she is far from social standard ( so sad )

4. I am lost, lonely, angry & can’t understand my life


•February 27, 2010 • 3 Comments

Firstly for information I would like too put Quizz results in every end of my Blog just for the fun ( I like playing personality quizzes )

As for my name you call me whatever you like.  I’m born from an European Indonesian mother and a middle east father. So basically I’m a usual lady you meet ( that is what I think about myself) , but reality tells you differant . My mum comes from a small family members , different then my father who comes from a LARGE family member ( 20 siblings ) – imagine how many cousins I have …..around 100 people. Unfortunately God loves me so so much that I have only 1 brother, that is younger then me.

I don’t have a hobby,,,,hahahahaha- don’t know why? But i know that I like to learn new things. My curiosity is over my head and it gets me in a lot of trouble also accident- I will tell you later about that. Back to my Family – my  father worked in the international world known oil company where my mom sacrificed her career as a lawyer to become  a HOUSEWIFE.  Desperately enough she was a perfect, patient and totally devoted wife where everything she does was for her Husband and Family. Never ever questioned what the husband says and always obeys without doubt – typical Arab wife – no efense towards Arab because i’m half Arab.

My father’s family are all Arabs where my father was the only person who married a non-Arab. And also i refer the same towards my mother, she was the only person in her family who married a non-Indonesian. So,,, for conclusion is that their marriege was quite a drama among  families.  Ooohhh sorry, forgot to mention that my father was a divorce man after married to my mom ( ex wife was a danish where they had 1 daughter- so yes people I have an older step Sister ).  Their marriage was a DRAMA,,,let me explain about it. My father married  my mum saying that HE WAS DIVORCED WHICH WAS A LIE,,,, she knew after they got married that he was someone elses’s husband. It was War World III among them when wife no.1 found out that he remarried, as a payback affairs came as a role between them and my mum accused as the Guilty side. I will skip more details about my parents.

Eventhough my father graduated from a well known university in England but he still holds tightly his “cultural princips”.The  behavioral respond, educational support also mindset  between woman and men sets a very far barrier towards these two side. Grew up from a family ‘’’’’’’with money ,plays money, always needs money and can’t live with out it….’’’’’’’’

Differant then my mum whom was brought up in a “European culture surrounded by Asian STRICT culture”.  For her ethiques, values, education, pride ,honor and family name is as priority. Questions as “how a women should behave and think as a Respectable Honored Women” are more the issue. Because my mum  family is “known”  as a High Class Society Family.

Which Sex and The City character are you? quiz and got the result: You are Carrie..
You are Carrie: You are a smart, sassy, fashion-forward lady. In matters of style, you’re the queen, but when it comes to heart, you allow yourself to fall too hard too often. While this will eventually lead to true love, it will also lead to a lot of heartbreak. Luckily, with good friends and good liquor, you are able to keep your head above water.

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•February 25, 2010 • 1 Comment

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